The Loner: Men Out of Uniform Book 4 Read online

  And he wished he didn’t want that, because it felt like a betrayal to the mother who had loved and raised him so thoroughly.

  At long last, Huck finally heard the shower stop and breathed a monumental sigh of relief. Why? Who knew? She was still dewy soft, wet and naked, those mocha curls smoothed away from her face and hanging down her back, beads of moisture clinging to her lashes...and other more intimate places. Another wave of heat washed over his throbbing loins.

  Though the door to his guest bedroom was shut, he imagined being able to smell her soap, something clean and fruity with an orange blossom finish. Imagined walking up behind her, filling his hands with her breasts and nestling his dick against the sweet warm V of her ripe bottom. Mercy, how he loved her ass. Biting her neck and feeling her quake against him, feel her sigh, weaken and tremble for him. Feel her arch into--

  A knock sounded at his door, jerking him out of the fantasy. He shifted guilty and put the file he’d been looking at awkwardly over his lap. “Yes?”

  Looking just as warm, wet and sexy as he’d imagined--complete with the sweet citrus scent--Sapphira poked her head into the room, careful to keep the rest of her body out in the hall. He could make out the top of a worn chenille robe and inwardly winced when he realized she was probably completely naked beneath the garment. Impossibly, more blood pooled in the fiery pit of his loins. “I just wanted to make sure that you found everything.” She gestured toward his en suite bath. “Towels, soap and the like.”

  He nodded, wishing he could breathe. “I’m going to make one more sweep of the perimeter, check the locks and all before I shower and hit the sack.”

  Her eyes widened a bit and she nervously cleared her throat. “You’re going to c-come into my room?”

  Huck studied her and felt a slow smile spread across his lips. “Yeah. Does that bother you?”

  He could only think of one reason it could and it absolutely tickled the hell out of him. Evidently he wasn’t the only person battling an unwanted attraction. Now that was an interesting turn of events--potentially disastrous, of course--but interesting all the same, Huck thought, irrationally pleased. How had he missed it? he wondered now as he watched her slightly anxious face, observed the dilated pupils, the way she worried that lush bottom lip. Classic signs of sexual interest and he typically credited himself with a keen sense of insight...yet he’d missed them.

  Probably because he’d been so worried about masking his own galling attraction, he decided, letting this new discovery inflate his ego right along with his miserably aching penis.

  She moistened her lips and lifted her chin. “Not at all,” she said. “I just wondered if you were going to do it from the outside.”

  “I can,” he offered, smiling, his gaze tangling pointedly with hers. “If that makes you more comfortable.”

  She smirked at him. “That’s okay. I’m comfortable in my own house, thank you.”

  “You should probably put on some clothes before I come in there,” he suggested helpfully. “You wouldn’t want me to get the wrong impression.” Or the right one, Huck added silently, thoroughly enjoying himself at her expense.

  She clutched the top of her robe, making sure the lapels were completely shut. She looked sexy as hell and strangely vulnerable in that moment, Huck thought. “Well, you’re wrong about so much I can easily see you leaping to the wrong conclusion. I’m a light sleeper, so be quiet when you come in. Good night, Huckleberry.”

  “Not by a long shot,” he said, chuckling softly.

  But he had to admit it had just gotten better.

  * * *

  Effectively shut down from doing any in-the-trenches work, Sapphira spent the majority of the next day and afternoon working on the computer. Any time she caught Huck looking over her shoulder--or anywhere in her direction, for that matter--she pulled up fashion Web sites and the occasional celebrity blog. She made sure to do a lot of loud sighing and tried to look bored out of her skull.

  Frankly, she was neither.

  The truth of the matter was that she liked her little house and the last eleven days of being the world’s biggest pain in the ass had been quite taxing. In short, she’d been exhausted and staying home was the perfect cure.

  Furthermore, she’d been communicating with several people in her office as well as managed to get a quick instant message to Carmen to let her know that she’d make the appointment tomorrow if it killed her. How was she going to handle that with Huck? Sapphira wasn’t altogether sure at this point. But she would manage. She always did.

  Last night when she’d been pretending to be asleep when he’d slipped into her room to make sure her locks were secure--as though she couldn’t have handled that herself--she’d decided against bombarding him with a list of places to go. Sorting through a list of fabricated, frivolous errands generated to annoy him would not endear him to her. Better that she simply wait until the opportune moment and let him know that she had a doctor’s appointment tomorrow morning.

  She’d also managed to get a few emails to and from Cindy and, much to her pleasure and relief, last night’s mentoring session had gone well. Reverend Alton had asked about her continued absence, but Cindy had managed to smooth it over, assuring him that Sapphira hadn’t abandoned the project, but had merely been out of touch for the past couple of weeks.

  Naturally, Cindy had been more interested in her first night with Huck than talking Belle Charities, but Sapphira had managed to mostly avoid the topic of her hunky bodyguard by citing her lack of privacy and limited time. Had they been on the phone, then her friend would have no doubt detected the sheer unadulterated lust in her voice, the very tone she hoped with all her heart didn’t come across to Mr. Ego. The look he’d given her last night when she’d slipped up and mentioned him coming into her room, had been absolutely mortifying.

  He knew.

  And she could, quite simply, kick herself.

  She’d managed to pull off acting like a superficial prima donna for the past eleven days, then had dropped the ball on something like that? Irritation churned in her humiliated gut. If there were any way to kick her own ass, she’d do it.

  She hadn’t lied when she’d told him she was a light sleeper, however, for the majority of the night sleep had completely eluded her and what few winks she’d managed to achieve had been fitful and punctuated with erotic dreams of him. The bastard-sonofabitch-asshole, she silently added just to amuse herself.

  Now that had been a first.

  Sapphira had never had a so-called wet dream before. Oh, she’d once dreamed of kissing Johnny Depp, but that was only after watching that pirate movie of his half a dozen times. No, this wasn’t anything like that at all. Frankly, she’d almost bet a real kiss by the real Johnny Depp would pale in comparison to the mere dream she’d had of Huck.

  Honestly, she didn’t know whether or not he’d peeked into her room earlier in the day and therefore knew the layout of her suite, but the man didn’t even have to let his eyes adjust to the darkness. He’d walked unerringly to all three windows in her room, systematically checking the locks, then had moved into her bathroom. Knowing he would do this, she’d purposely put all sorts of feminine products--nail polish and remover, astringent, lotion, a box of tampons, her birth control pills, etc...--in the windowsill just to trip him up.

  He hadn’t disturbed a single thing.

  Then the wretch had had the nerve to come stand at the foot of her bed long enough to make her want to howl and had laughed softly, muttered a “Nice try, Princess,” then had quietly left her room to return to his across the hall. And that wasn’t far enough.

  By then, though, it had been too late. Her quarters had been contaminated with his potent sex-appeal cooties and she’d turned into a miserable, aching wreck who’d wished she’d thought to bring some air freshener into her room to eliminate that wonderfully masculine smell.

  His scent.

  No doubt that lingering aroma had played a serious factor in her inescapable dream. Ho
t, hard body, supple muscle, smooth skin, that skillful mouth feasting upon her breasts, over her belly and ultimately between her legs. It had been the strangest--most real--thing. She’d literally felt him there to the point that she’d woken up in the middle of climax, her body dewy and quaking, and ultimately aching for him. Then, because she was a moron, she’d tried to fall asleep again immediately afterward so that she might recapture the magic and continue the dream.

  She didn’t, of course, but had to admit the human mind was a seriously powerful thing.

  Her gaze slid across the room to where Huck sat, tapping away on his own computer. Other than a couple of trips to the bathroom, he’d been right there with her all day. Pinging her with his presence. Making her miserable. Her muddled belly gave a little flutter and a wash of heat engulfed her sex, causing her feminine muscles to clench. She forcibly squelched a whimper.

  He looked up at her. “Is something wrong?”

  “No, why?” she asked innocently.

  “You made a noise.”

  “It’s a silent scream of boredom.”

  He chuckled and shook his head. “Give it up. You’re not bored.”

  She gaped at him. “How the hell would you know?”

  “You’ve been too busy to be bored.”

  Sapphira closed her own laptop and stared at him. “Are you on crack?” she asked, feigning incredulity. “I haven’t been busy. I’ve been surfing the internet, filling my head with important celebrity gossip and fashion tips. Did you know that purple is supposed to be the new black this fall?”

  “No, I didn’t,” he replied amiably. “And I can honestly say that I don’t give a damn.” He paused. “But you have not been bored. In fact, if I didn’t know any better, I’d say you’ve been happy.”

  She felt a flush of heat climb her neck and decided that she’d better convince him that it was anger. “Happy? Happy? I’ve been your prisoner here all day. I’ve listened to you insult my dog, whine about my lack of proper snacks--like I’m supposed to know what sort of chips you prefer--and listen to you breathe all day long.”

  He chuckled and quirked a brow. “You don’t like listening to me breathe?” he asked. “Would you prefer the alternative?”

  “No,” she snapped. “I’d just prefer that you do your breathing somewhere else. Like Portugal,” she added sweetly.

  He paused, and a frightening flash of unreadable emotion lit up that keen hawk-like gaze. She didn’t know what imaginary line she’d crossed, but was suddenly aware that she’d gone too far. “Funny,” he finally said. “I didn’t get the impression you wanted me somewhere else last night.”

  Mortified, Sapphira sprang up. “Of, for the love of God. I saw the look on your smug face last night, Hot Shot, and I’ve got news for you. I think you’re laboring under the mistaken impression that I like you.” She crossed her arms over her chest. “I don’t.”

  Still smiling--oh, how she ached to wipe that self-satisfied look off his face--he merely shrugged. “You don’t have to like me to want me.”

  She felt the floor shift beneath her feet and almost staggered from embarrassment. “W-want you?” she breathed, feigning outrage. “Have you lost your mind?”

  “Nope. And I haven’t lost my hearing either.”

  She blinked, confused, though a hollow sense of dread had filled her stomach and spread to the point she couldn’t feel her fingertips. “I’m sorry?”

  “I heard you, Sapphira,” he said knowingly. “Last night.”

  “I’m afraid I don’t follow.” A sneaking suspicion had taken hold, but it was too horrible--too mortifying--to contemplate.

  “You called my name. Come to think of it, it was more of moan,” he added, thoughtfully stroking his jaw. “I thought you needed help.”

  Her legs no longer able to support her, Sapphira sagged onto the nearest chair. He’d heard her sex dream, the one in which he’d had the starring, orgasm-inducing role? Dear God, where was a good hole when you needed one? She’d been embarrassed before. She’d walked out of the restroom with toilet paper stuck to her shoe, and she’d once did a combo sneeze/fart in an elevator full of college football players, but nothing--nothing--compared to this. “You, er...” She cleared her throat. “You came into my r-room again?”

  “No,” he said. He rubbed a hand over the back of his neck, looking pleased but just a bit uncomfortable. Probably wishing he hadn’t let his ego loosen his tongue. “I figured out what was going on before it ever got to that point.”

  A small comfort, she thought hollowly as humiliation saturated every pore in her body and manifested itself in a full-body blush.

  He’d heard her.

  If anything this embarrassing had ever happened to her before, her mind had blocked it from her memory. She wished her bloody amazing mind would teleport her to Portugal.

  For the first time in her life, she didn’t know what to say. Somehow a “That’s nice” seemed just a little too inane. Rather than respond, Sapphira stood and started to leave the room.

  Huck suddenly rose out of the chair and stopped her with the sheer force of his size. She almost landed against his chest, and was actually angry when she didn’t. How screwed up was that? That she still wanted to touch him--feel him, even accidentally--after this.

  She felt his finger at her chin and he gently tilted her face up to look into his. A shiver worked its way through her and she felt herself gravitate toward him. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have told you.”

  He was right, dammit! He shouldn’t have! Any sort of gentleman would have kept his friggin’ mouth shut. But was he a gentleman? No. Of course, not. He was a bad ass former Ranger with wounded keen grey eyes, a fresh scar and a limp that begged more questions than she knew he’d ever answer. He was hard and annoying and arrogant. And funny and sexy and smart. He was... He was...

  ...going to kiss her, Sapphira realized a nanosecond before that beautiful mouth found hers. The very one she’d been dreaming about, fantasizing over.

  He tasted like dill pickle chips, ginger ale and something dark and thrillingly wicked. Like sin, she realized as her body literally melted against his. Her knees grew weak and her legs wobbled, forcing her even closer to him. Heat moved through her limbs and settled hotly in her sex, triggering a deep throb in her womb. She sighed, savoring the feel of him against her body. Her soft to his hard, strong hands framing her face, sliding into her hair and kneading her scalp.

  Heaven.

  A hum of masculine pleasure reverberated over her tongue and she ate it greedily, could feel the fire she’d been trying to contain blazing out of control throughout her body. And God, how she loved the way he felt. She’d touched men before, of course, but this one...

  This one felt like warmed marble, living granite. Girl candy, Sapphira thought dimly, as she felt his muscles bunch and bulge beneath her greedy palms. He was hot and hard--all of him--and she could feel him, like fever, in every cell in her body. She wrapped her arms around his waist, then slid her hands over his back. Taut muscle, the vulnerable indentation of his spine, wide shoulders. He was like a drug and she was already hopelessly addicted.

  It was madness, total insanity and yet she couldn’t seem to help herself. Couldn’t get enough of him. She sucked his tongue into her mouth, slid it along his in an intimate dance that mimicked another more intimate act. His lips were firm, but full and moving over hers with an intensity that told her she wasn’t the only one experiencing an inconvenient attraction--he wanted her, too.

  The mere idea made her panties wet and she ached to rub against him, to put that hard ridge of arousal currently nudging her belly deep into the very heart of her. Instead, she scrambled closer and deepened the kiss. His big body vibrated with a need she recognized and answered with a moan of sheer madness. She felt his hands slide down her back, over her rump and he squeezed, setting off a firework of heat in her sex. Warmth rushed to her core, coating her folds. Her nipples tingled and pearled and every press of his body against hers was
a sheer delight of sensation.

  Huck moaned into her mouth once more, suckled her tongue. “You drive me crazy, you know that?”

  Now he wanted to talk? Mr. Brooding and Silent? Sapphira ignored him and pushed her hands back into his hair. She loved the way he felt beneath her palms, that delicate place behind his ear. So soft, she thought dimly. He nudged her belly again. And so hard.

  She whimpered, began to tug the shirt from his waist band. She wanted to feel his skin, taste it, sample every inch of him. His smell, that wonderfully masculine fragrance, swirled around her senses. He slid his big hand up along her side, making a slow but determined journey toward her breast. She squirmed, trying to put the aching orb into his palm faster.

  Almost... Almost...

  Huck suddenly stilled and when he drew back, he looked every bit as flushed and feverish as she felt. Those gorgeous grey eyes had turned a deep gunmetal shade.

  “Phone,” he said, his voice oddly rusty. But he was quickly all business again. He swore and removed the cell from the holder at his waist. “Finn,” he answered. His gaze suddenly cleared, sharpened and zeroed in on hers with unerring accuracy. “Another letter? When did it arrive? Right. I’ll be right there.”

  She smiled sadly, irritated on too many levels to properly count. One, another letter ensured that she’d continue to be an at-home prisoner and two--she inwardly sighed--there was nothing like a little stalker to ruin a perfectly good kiss...which undoubtedly would have turned into perfectly perfect sex.

  CHAPTER 7

  Using a pair of plastic gloves to keep from damaging any potential evidence, Huck carefully inspected the letter which lay on the foyer table, where the afternoon mail had been deposited. Stravos wasn’t there, but had been informed of the letter’s presence and had given instructions to turn it over to Huck.